Uneasy to pee outside under the sky, my little girl self, hidden behind bushes, held back. Witnessing and mattering my holdback, mom showed it love by gently speaking to it. Her softly repeated “Anna tulla, anna tulla” (“Let it flow, let it flow” in Finnish) is what my holdback yearned to hear, lovingly affirming me to feel free to let go. In our Monday lab we will create a loving space to matter and deeply listen to the holdbacks we have grown familiar to.