After each of my protostar births
I danced to make the way more possible
for the next starseed to come.
And that is how all of my babies
came to be born through me.
—Mother Mother Binahkaye Joy
how will you live into the majesty of this birth?
A protostar is a star on its way to becoming. Just as all stars don’t continue growing to become as large and full and bright as the sun, some starseeds don’t continue their journey to becoming fully human. We call those birthing moments, protostar births.
Protostar Birth Consciousness is a gentle discovery portal for mothers wanting to heal their relationship to their fertility after a protostar birth, and recover their fertility radiance for future birthing moments.
Protostar Birth Consciousness is rooted in a self-guided dance journey that opens up the heart of one’s birth stories, and reveals untapped spaces of healing, activation, and expansion. This soft-time workshop is activated as a personalized, virtual portal where participants enjoy direct access to Mother Mother. With each interaction, she cultivates generative applications of story brilliance as nourishment for everyday life. Mother Mother supports mothers in accessing new reserves of energy in their bodies through movement practices that recover their fertility radiance.
Once upon a time, Mother Mother ran away to Trinidad & Tobago to recover her fertility after multiple protostar births
Mother Mother dances in St, James Ampitheatre in Port of Spain, Trinidad.
Dancing after a protostar birth is a labor that creates space for the next starseed to come.
There is always new life that we can access when we dance.
Mother Mother dances a few weeks after a protostar birth.
Excerpt of Mother Mother’s Essay
“Naturally, there was more than blood and bone at work, more than could be measured, or calculated or predicted. I was being ushered onto a spiritual path that would in time become central to my life’s work. The mothers were calling my name, but I couldn’t yet hear them fully as I cried and grieved in my years of being an invisible mother. Whatever form my grieving took on, I knew this: my fertility and my future as a mother felt too precious to leave in anyone else’s hands but my own…”
what is a protostar birth?
A protostar is a star on its way to becoming. Our sun, a main sequence star, was once a protostar. Not all protostars continue along the path of becoming, just as not all life that begins in the womb continues on its way to becoming wholly human. Those protostars that don’t grow into the next dimension of possibility, slowly cool in a gentle unraveling of their stellar potential over millions and millions of years. Eventually the bounty of their being returns to the nebula as stardust and creative matter for other stars, planets, or moons engaged in cosmic formations. There is no loss, ever, only constant transformation and reimagined energies. A protostar birth is when a mother gives birth early, before having the opportunity to give birth to the miracle of human expansion, because that newly evolving life has transitioned inside her womb.
Dancing through the labor is a way to be with the life energy of the starseed that is transitioning.
It’s a way for our cells to remember this love with grace.
Mother Mother dances through the birthing moments of a protostar birth.
A personal invitation from Mother Mother
Dear Beautiful, Courageous Mother,
If this all feels true for you, it is for you.
Protostar Birth Consciousness is an intimate, immersive, self-paced program thoughtfully designed with mothers like us in mind. It is a love-labor evolving from a constellation of creativity, intelligence, and mother-love: my many years of birthing, lessons in restoring my breath and faith after seasons of grief and despair, a lifelong devotion to studying the rhythms and magic of my fertility superpowers, the capacity to experiment with transformative movement practices, and being a midwife to myself, and many other mothers, laboring through protostar births before and after my earthside children were born.
From all these sacred moments, I have gathered the tenderest parts of my journeys and discoveries, and extracted offerings of support for those who are ready to make space for the dynamic labors of feeling, moving, and reimaginging that are at the center of recovering our fertility radiance. Protostar Birth Consciousness presents pathways, tools, and invitations for mothers reclaiming their joys and believing that a new story, and new life, is possible in their wombs.
After each of my protostar births, I danced to make the way more possible for the next starseed to come. And that is how all of my babies came to be born through me.
As Mother Mother, I sit with you through the soft-time sharing of my heart, truths, and movements. I listen to your stories and offer compassionate and loving reflections. Protostar Birth Consciousness is my love offering to the mothers. It’s what I wish I would have had, how I wish someone would have held me, when I was laboring so many times on my own and as an invisible mother to the people around me.
You are not alone. I see you, as mother. I am here for you.
With love and booty rolls,
Mother Mother Binah
Mother Mother always feels her fertility majesties reviving when she dances by the sea.
Choose your adventure!
To begin your journey toward amplified awareness of your fertility majesty, and explore multiple applications of protostar birth consciousness in your fertility revival labors, choose the best way to engage with Mother Mother. The soft-time workshop portal is activated through direct access to Mother Mother’s brilliance, stories, practice recommendations, insights, and personalized movement invitations in these ways:
90-Minute Session with Mother Mother
$350
A 90-minute call with Mother Mother
ACTIVATORS
$350
One week of soft-time presence with Mother Mother through texts and voice notes
DREAMERS
$1200
1 month of soft-time presence with Mother Mother through texts and voice notes
SUPERCONDUCTORS
$3500
3 months of soft-time presence with Mother Mother through texts and voice notes
*Optional Add-ons for Activators, Dreamers, and Superconductors*
90-minute call with Mother Mother: $300
Shadow Journaling: $150/week
Complete your registration by sending payment via Zelle, Venmo, or Cash App at the Giving Well.
When we are dancing, the revival of our fertility is always more accessible in the consciousness of what, and who, we feel our bodies can birth.
Mother Mother dances with the sun, trees, and the wind to revive her fertility months after a protostar birthing moment.
A note about language
A starseed is the physical and energetic matter of a future human being or future creation. I first heard this language from my spiritual midwife and soul sistermama Amber RainMa. In my practice I have come to understand that a starseed is the radiant life energy found within each egg that is preserved in a mother’s ovary, and from which all human life and all creations originate. A starseed is a newly forming being on its way to becoming human, or a dream on its way to becoming realized in the world outside of your body as a dance, a story, or any other form of creation.